My name is Caitlyn, I'm 18 years old. I'm from a suburb in Chicago. I go to school at Lee University in Cleveland, Tennessee. I am a Christ Follower. I have committed my life to Jesus. This is my blog, which was created to help further my relationship with Him. _______________________________________
"It's in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for." -Ephesians 1:11 (The Message)
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has to be one of the hardest things for me.
Lord, I pray that you can humble my heart.
“You younger men, likewise, be subject to your elders; and all of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, for God is opposed to the proud, but gives grace to the humble. Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time” -1 Peter 5:5-6
to have a daily devotion. It’s so important and I definitely do not spend nearly enough time in His word and praying as I should be.
Lord, I just pray that you open up my heart to You. I pray that You can help me to get rid of the excuses I might have and spend a fraction of my day completely focused on You.
who walk in the light of your presence, Lord. ❞
I’ve been thinking of doing something to help me understand what it’s truly like to live with little food or water like the people who live in third world countries do. I take food and water WAY for granted and want something that will challenge me and help me understand what some people in this world have to deal with. Does anyone have any ideas or any advice?
This is a beautiful song.
I personally interpret it to be God speaking to His children. But I love that it can be interpreted different ways.
God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I AM has sent me to you.’” -Exodus 3:14
We did cardboard confessionals tonight at small group. They were about something we overcame this school year. For me, a lot of things I have hoped would happen in my life haven’t happened. I’m not the person that I want to be, I didn’t make as many friends as I hoped I would, I didn’t understand why I was at Lee University, I didn’t find true love, I have witnessed loved ones go through unbearable pain that I never wanted to see. I have just simply felt hopeless about my future. But as opportunities unfold, as I meet new people, as new circumstances happen, I have now learned and understood this: God’s plan for me is unimaginable. The things that I hope for in my future, some may be part of His plan, but others might not be. I have learned that when things don’t go my way, it’s okay. I can trust that it’s because God knows what’s best for my life. What I want isn’t always what is best and what is part of His incredible plan for me. I have truly begun to understand what this really means.
Call me a hopeless romantic, I don’t care. But this is the journal I started to give to my future husband. I don’t know him yet. But I’m excited to find out who he is and to begin a long journey with him. This journal has helped me out tremendously. Every time I start to feel upset that I am single, I write him a little note. It always cheers me up. But the main reason it helps me out is that it keeps me on track. As much as I’d love to meet him right now, I know that I’m not ready to yet. I wouldn’t want him to meet me as I am in this moment. It reminds me to keep striving to be the woman of Christ I know that God wants me to be. It reminds me that God’s timing is perfect and He will allow our paths to cross at the time that they’re supposed to. I need to not get discouraged by the feelings of loneliness. There is a reason I am single, there is a reason I don’t know him yet. I need to remember that I am the beautiful daughter of a loving Father who only has the best plan for me.
Lord, I know that I’ve been praying that Your will be done in this transferring situation.
I want to follow You in everything I do. I feel You guiding me back to Chicago.
I feel that there is a reason that this is all working out so well. I just pray that I am making the decision based on You. Please guide me Lord.
I know this isn’t going to be easy. I know it’s going to be inconvenient. I know it’s going to be so different than what everyone else is doing. But I also know You don’t call me to be the same as everyone else. You call me to be different and to be the light.
I just pray that I am hearing your voice and not my own.
Thank You for giving me these opportunities.
I have discovered so much over this past weekend. While leading at my church from back home’s retreat, I was once again more impacted by the message than I thought I was going to be. It was about being derailed. It talked about how we sometimes get off the path we’re supposed to be on. It really impacted me a ton and while worshipping and in praying, I couldn’t help but analyze my own life. I have been feeling iffy about Lee ever since I got here. I’ve had good weeks, and I’ve had bad weeks. As much as I love being at Lee most of the time, I am positive this is not where God wants me to stay. I’ve known this from the start of being here. I know that I’m not on the right track right now. I’m not the person I’m supposed to be.
For the past 2 years, I have known God has called me to work with urban youth. He has given me a heart for elementary schoolers all of my life. He has called me to impact their lives through teaching.
I am not getting any of the experience that I need at Lee. I know that God has other plans for me than here in Cleveland, Tennessee. I’ve been praying and praying and I just feel God is calling me back to Chicago.
I feel that there is a reason I’ve been spending these past couple months at Lee. I’m not sure why yet. But there has to be. I know that He wanted me here for a year, that’s why the scholarship was only for a year.
I just know that there has been a desire placed in my heart for urban areas. I know it isn’t going to be easy, but I know it’s what I’m supposed to do and where I’m supposed to be.
I’m just praying for clarity and an even clearer reassurance that this is the voice of God I am hearing. Please pray that I make the right decision about the opportunities that are going to come my way.
